Damage

'Stronger than you think' is a lie, a fallacy. You cannot be stronger than what you know yourself to be. You can only try to look strong, pretend. But pretension won't protect you when the blows strike. So, why pretend?


May be it's because of the pressure the world puts on you- to be strong, to be a hero. Right from the start, it's always 'be successful', 'be smart', 'be cool', 'be better', be the best. There is no tolerance for weakness. We won't admit to weakness in ourselves either, no matter how load the screams of our conscience are. There are no takers for weakness. Nobody tolerates, lest appreciates your flaw.


What is light? What is the theoretical, scientific definition of light? Absence of darkness, some would say. Going by a parallel logic, I may as well state that strength is nothing but the absence of weakness. You cannot determine what makes you strong or how strong you could be until you know about your weakness. But how will you know about them if you don't accept the fact that they exist?


I guess what I'm trying to say is- it's okay. It's okay to be weak. It's okay to make a few mistakes. It's okay to cry once in a while. It's okay to feel blue. Everybody has shades of grey. It's okay to have those emotional wounds. It's okay to be a little damaged. It's okay to have a little murkiness in your past. It's okay to sometimes poke at them and immerse yourself in the bittersweet pain. Because no matter how much you ignore them, they are a part of you, begging recognition.


They don't heal. You never know when was it or what was it that scarred you so, or maybe you do but don't wish to accept it. You're not as strong as you give yourself credit to be. You put too much pressure on yourself to stay strong. But it takes only a trigger and the things you never knew you were holding inside come pouring out. Just a twitch.

We have both light and dark inside of us. Then why are we always aiming for the bright side and ignoring the dark? Ignorance won't make it go away. Granted, nobody wants to see the dark. But neglecting it won't help either.


What to do, then? Talk about it. May be you could tell people who care about it. Okay, that might take a lot of searching to do but may be you would be able to find someone who'd understand. Then, you'd get advised. How to heal, how to mend etc. You'll get helped.
But what about the stuff that can't be repaired? Permanent Damage? Learn to live with it, that's my call.
Protection from stimuli can keep you safe for only just as long. What's broken cannot be unbroken. Coming undone is a pigment of your imagination.