Love for the walls



We're moving out from the house we've lived in for fifteen years. It shouldn't bother me much because I have been practically living out the last six years. But, bonds of memories unite you with the concrete of pillars and the bricks in the walls...




This room. So quiet, still. This is where I grew up. Read and wrote. Dreamed and waited. These walls stand witness to all that I felt. All the gods I worshiped, lost faith in and renounced- their edifices once adorned these walls. Till I took them down and out, out of my life. These walls have seen all those that mattered. Heard the conversations- the clever scheming, the giggling fits, the starry eyed dreams, the lore of loss...

It is in this room where the stray rays of the moon filter in through the window that I have slept, safe from the outside, secure in my thoughts. This is where I imagined myself being magical, being famous, being someone, being anyone... Till it was time to pack my bags and leave, see the world for what it was. Yet, I cannot hide from this room, all the things I have learnt and un-learnt with every trip and journey. It is here that I must return, to remember or to lose the burden of memory. For this room holds the knowledge accumulated all through these years. It holds answers. It is a mirror reflecting the past. It is a mirror reflecting what's inside. It is a pensive. It is a safe-keeper. It is a caregiver. It has me, in every scratch and speck.








8 comments:

  1. I have no attachment with houses. I don't like this about me. May be, I move a lot, so there never comes a point where I get attached to a place. Happy Moving! Hope new place brings loads of happiness and success to your family. :)

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  2. Memories do haunt.
    Good you penned them.

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  3. well.... being emotional about human and animal shows your an emotional person but being emotional about a house you have stayed in,a pen you have used or the first car (be it a second hand ) you bought shows you are really very emotional... and being a traveler in the same boat... I know how it feels to leave the house which sheltered you for decades..which has seen you being scolded,excited,horrified and celebrating life !! everytime you take a cab to the new house or drive towards your new dwelling..you recall those old lanes !! thumbsup for your post !! suppa like ! :)

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  4. Nostalgic. Like Saru, my nostalgia is very seldom about places.

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  5. Nope, can't get threaded comments to work! Will have to respond the inconvenient way.

    @Saru: Thank you for your wishes! I've practically spent my childhood here, so, some attachment.

    @Indrani: Thank you for stopping by :) What are we without memories?:)

    @mysay: Glad to find someone who can relate to my feelings! :)

    @CS: Well, I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.

    @A Homemaker's Utopia: Thanks! :)

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